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Ojai Vignettes, Part 1

Posted on March 18, 2014 by edcol52

Driving north on Highway 1 again. Through the same blackened and blasted landscape of six weeks ago. Today, the charred hillsides wore the gauzy green mantle of new growth that signifies Spring in California. My internal landscape was slightly less … Continue reading →

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Just Grinding Along

Posted on March 5, 2014 by edcol52

Yeah, that’s how these past few days felt. Just grinding along. Crossing off the days one by one. I have settled into a sort of routine now. Up at 6:35 during the week. Shul by 6:45, Kaddish, and home by 7:15. … Continue reading →

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Missin’ You

Posted on March 3, 2014 by edcol52

It’s curious how this works, I still haven’t figured it out. Granted, I am very new at this, but it is all a mystery. Last night we had dinner at our friend’s house. These are people who knew Jake well; … Continue reading →

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Making the Minyan

Posted on February 28, 2014 by edcol52

There is a concept in Judaism of ‘minyan’ or a quorum of ten men necessary for public religious observances. The sources of this requirement are several Biblical verses regarding congregations and the number of people who constitute a ‘congregation’, as … Continue reading →

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Ambushed!

Posted on February 17, 2014 by edcol52

Today started off just fine. Clear sky, bright yellow sunlight. Everything seemed to be okay. We had a lovely time the previous evening at our friends’ house, eating corned beef hash (one of Jake’s favorites) popping popcorn and watching, or more … Continue reading →

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For Whom Do We Weep?

Posted on February 3, 2014 by edcol52

I woke up this morning at 6:35 with tears in my eyes. Usually I am awake before my iPhone starts to play the Chopin Nocturne #1 that is my alarm clock, but today, the music dragged me up from a … Continue reading →

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Progress?

Posted on January 31, 2014 by edcol52

Today was a tiny slice of normal. The clouds lifted somewhat, and shreds of blue emerged from behind the corrugated grey clouds as the day wore on. Bustling around doing innocuous errands for most of the day, including trips to two … Continue reading →

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Shloshim

Posted on January 29, 2014 by edcol52

Today we marked the end of the shloshim, the 30 days of mourning following Jake’s funeral. The day dawned cold and grey. A shroud of fog enveloped everything, damp and misty. We drove to the cemetery in silence. Even the … Continue reading →

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Relativity

Posted on January 27, 2014 by edcol52

Tomorrow, it will be one month since that dreadful telephone call. The details of which are seared into my memory for all time. It is all so fresh, I can’t believe the time has passed. But time is always relative. … Continue reading →

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Saudade

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

Saudade (European Portuguese: [sɐwˈðaðɨ], Brazilian Portuguese: [sawˈdadi] or [sawˈdadʒi], Galician: [sawˈðaðe]; plural saudades)[1] is a Portuguese and Galician word that has no direct translation in English. It describes a deep emotional state of nostalgic or deeply melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one loves. Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing … Continue reading →

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