Losing Petie

These words ring true for anyone who has lost a child. Wanting to die, wanting to live, holding on to the past and facing the future. Thank you, Barb, for such eloquence and truth.

learning to let go 2016

No matter how long I live, I will never be able to write in words what losing my child has made of me.  It’s a schizophrenic life.  One of holding on and letting go, of wanting to die and dying, and one of wanting to live and living.

I live.  He is brought to life.  He dies, I die but I live.  I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, yet I live.  He wanted to live, he wanted to live, he wanted to live, yet he died.  I live.  I want to die, I want to live.  My mind dies, my body lives.  My mind wants to live, my body wants to die.

Some days I live in the past and cannot see the future, others I cannot look into the past and crave the hope that only the future holds.  I am pitied for…

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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.
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