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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

In the Beginning …

“You say you lost your faith, but that’s not where it’s at. You had no faith to lose and you know it.” Bob Dylan – Positively 4th Street We have just come through the three weeks of what is called … Continue reading

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A Perpetual State of Bewilderment

It seems unbelievable that exactly three years ago, I wrote a post for this blog titled “A New Stage”. It was a stage of grief that isn’t really discussed in the “grief literature”, one that I named the WTF stage. … Continue reading

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Loving My Son, After His Death

I came across this again today, and thought it worth sharing. She lost her son around the time we lost Jake and he was almost the same age. Different circumstances, same emotions.

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Where are My Simchas?

In Hebrew, ‘simcha’ means gladness or joy. It is often used as a noun to denote any celebration because a celebration is always a cause for happiness. Simchas are usually connected with one’s children: births, Bar or Bat Mitzvahs, weddings. It is … Continue reading

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Silent Grief – The “Aloneness” of Grief

Originally posted on Grief: One Woman's Perspective:
Our Western culture has inadvertently conditioned us to avoid death and grief. Our society tends to isolate those who are struggling with illness, pain, death and grief — hoping that if we…

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Into the New Year

January is almost over, so if I am going to write a post on the New Year and the past Holiday season, I’d better get on it before it is next year already. We made it through the Holidays basically … Continue reading

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A New Year, Nothing New

I have  been kicking ideas for a post around for the previous few weeks, but couldn’t quite coalesce them into a coherent form. I am still looking for something to bring these random and disparate thoughts and ideas together. So … Continue reading

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