Author Archives: edcol52

About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

A Message From Jake

Posted on January 1, 2022 by edcol52

In September of 2019, we got a phone call from a friend of ours. We met N_____ through my mother, and we became friends with her ourselves. She knew Jake, he even stayed with her for a while. She told … Continue reading →

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Posted on December 31, 2021 by edcol52

What a year. We thought last year was wild, well, we had no idea. Tonight is New Year’s Eve. For most of the world, it is a time for celebration, of looking forward, of anticipation of what is to come. … Continue reading →

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And Just Like That, It is Seven

Posted on December 31, 2020 by edcol52

Today marks the seventh anniversary of the second saddest day in my life. The day we buried my beautiful boy. I look back and see it has been more than a year since I posted here. So much has happened … Continue reading →

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The 30th

Posted on August 18, 2019 by edcol52

Tomorrow, August 19, would have been Jake’s 30th birthday. Seems hard to believe. But so many things have happened in the past 6 years that are hard to believe. Nothing is unbelievable anymore. It is a futile and frustrating exercise … Continue reading →

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About Those 7 Things

Posted on January 16, 2019 by edcol52

Here is a blog post I just read. It is from 2015 and if you are grieving the loss of a child, I am sure you have read or written something like this. I probably read it three years ago … Continue reading →

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Where Does the Time Go?

Posted on December 31, 2018 by edcol52

I haven’t written anything on these pages since February of this year. 10 months. Where does the time go? Much has happened this year, and yet … There have been many times where I lay awake in the deep of … Continue reading →

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How Can I Sing With a Broken Heart.

Posted on February 2, 2018 by edcol52

We went to a concert last night. Hawaiian music. Keola Beamer, a master of Hawaiian slack key guitar, and Henry Kapono. They were two of the progenitors and drivers of the Hawaiian Rennaissance during the 60’s and 70’s. It was … Continue reading →

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December 28, 2017

Posted on December 30, 2017 by edcol52

Thursday was December 28, the 4th December 28th since Jake’s passing. 4 years. It doesn’t seem possible, but in this new world I now inhabit, anything is possible. It is one of the curiosities of time that it can be … Continue reading →

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In the Beginning …

Posted on October 16, 2017 by edcol52

“You say you lost your faith, but that’s not where it’s at. You had no faith to lose and you know it.” Bob Dylan – Positively 4th Street We have just come through the three weeks of what is called … Continue reading →

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A Perpetual State of Bewilderment

Posted on April 25, 2017 by edcol52

It seems unbelievable that exactly three years ago, I wrote a post for this blog titled “A New Stage”. It was a stage of grief that isn’t really discussed in the “grief literature”, one that I named the WTF stage. … Continue reading →

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