Author Archives: edcol52

About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

The 30th

Tomorrow, August 19, would have been Jake’s 30th birthday. Seems hard to believe. But so many things have happened in the past 6 years that are hard to believe. Nothing is unbelievable anymore. It is a futile and frustrating exercise … Continue reading

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About Those 7 Things

Here is a blog post I just read. It is from 2015 and if you are grieving the loss of a child, I am sure you have read or written something like this. I probably read it three years ago … Continue reading

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Where Does the Time Go?

I haven’t written anything on these pages since February of this year. 10 months. Where does the time go? Much has happened this year, and yet … There have been many times where I lay awake in the deep of … Continue reading

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How Can I Sing With a Broken Heart.

We went to a concert last night. Hawaiian music. Keola Beamer, a master of Hawaiian slack key guitar, and Henry Kapono. They were two of the progenitors and drivers of the Hawaiian Rennaissance during the 60’s and 70’s. It was … Continue reading

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December 28, 2017

Thursday was December 28, the 4th December 28th since Jake’s passing. 4 years. It doesn’t seem possible, but in this new world I now inhabit, anything is possible. It is one of the curiosities of time that it can be … Continue reading

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In the Beginning …

“You say you lost your faith, but that’s not where it’s at. You had no faith to lose and you know it.” Bob Dylan – Positively 4th Street We have just come through the three weeks of what is called … Continue reading

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A Perpetual State of Bewilderment

It seems unbelievable that exactly three years ago, I wrote a post for this blog titled “A New Stage”. It was a stage of grief that isn’t really discussed in the “grief literature”, one that I named the WTF stage. … Continue reading

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