Author Archives: edcol52

About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

Into the New Year

Posted on January 30, 2017

January is almost over, so if I am going to write a post on the New Year and the past Holiday season, I’d better get on it before it is next year already. We made it through the Holidays basically … Continue reading →

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A New Year, Nothing New

Posted on October 9, 2016

I have  been kicking ideas for a post around for the previous few weeks, but couldn’t quite coalesce them into a coherent form. I am still looking for something to bring these random and disparate thoughts and ideas together. So … Continue reading →

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What You Can Say to a Bereaved Parent

Posted on July 2, 2016

I came across this article today, and it is a succinct and honest look at what you can say to someone who has lost a son or daughter. http://www.today.com/parents/child-loss-what-you-should-should-not-say-parents-t30596?cid=sm_fbn There is also one thing you may never say, “I know … Continue reading →

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The Memory Labyrinth

Posted on June 25, 2016

We recently went north to attend a wedding in Sebastopol, near Santa Rosa in Northern California. On our way back home, we drove out to the Sonoma coast along the Russian River valley, a lovely 20 miles through rolling forested … Continue reading →

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Post Father’s Day Post

Posted on June 22, 2016

This past Sunday was Father’s Day, or as I now call it, Effing Father’s Day. The third without the son who made me a father. There was a time when I revelled in my fatherhood, had some epic times on … Continue reading →

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Help Dudley Survive Bone Cancer

Posted on June 8, 2016

5 years ago, a little black cat showed up at our back door demanding to be adopted by us. We named her Lola and made her part of the family. A few months later, she had a litter of 4 … Continue reading →

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Lost in Space

Posted on June 5, 2016

It has been nearly two months since I visited these pages. For some reason, the imperative to write is strangely absent. I have had thoughts of writing about Passover, Mother’s Day, the onset of the summer with Father’s Day, a … Continue reading →

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Letting Go of the Dream

Posted on April 18, 2016

I had a session with M., a biofield healer, the other day. She was repairing my energy fields and at one point she said, “You have to let go of your dreams.” I didn’t ask her in what context she meant … Continue reading →

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A Little Bit of Light

Posted on April 3, 2016

There is a light that burns in every Jewish synagogue, the Ner Tamid. In Judaism, the sanctuary lamp is known by its Hebrew name, ner tamid (Hebrew: נֵר תָּמִיד), which is usually translated as “eternal flame” or “eternal light”. Hanging or standing in … Continue reading →

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Losing Petie

Posted on March 29, 2016

Originally posted on learning to let go 2016:
No matter how long I live, I will never be able to write in words what losing my child has made of me.  It’s a schizophrenic life.  One of holding on and letting…

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