Author Archives: edcol52

About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

Loving My Son, After His Death

Posted on April 25, 2017 by edcol52

I came across this again today, and thought it worth sharing. She lost her son around the time we lost Jake and he was almost the same age. Different circumstances, same emotions.

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Where are My Simchas?

Posted on April 8, 2017 by edcol52

In Hebrew, ‘simcha’ means gladness or joy. It is often used as a noun to denote any celebration because a celebration is always a cause for happiness. Simchas are usually connected with one’s children: births, Bar or Bat Mitzvahs, weddings. It is … Continue reading →

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Silent Grief – The “Aloneness” of Grief

Posted on February 25, 2017 by edcol52

Originally posted on Grief: One Woman's Perspective:
Our Western culture has inadvertently conditioned us to avoid death and grief. Our society tends to isolate those who are struggling with illness, pain, death and grief — hoping that if we…

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Into the New Year

Posted on January 30, 2017 by edcol52

January is almost over, so if I am going to write a post on the New Year and the past Holiday season, I’d better get on it before it is next year already. We made it through the Holidays basically … Continue reading →

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A New Year, Nothing New

Posted on October 9, 2016 by edcol52

I have  been kicking ideas for a post around for the previous few weeks, but couldn’t quite coalesce them into a coherent form. I am still looking for something to bring these random and disparate thoughts and ideas together. So … Continue reading →

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What You Can Say to a Bereaved Parent

Posted on July 2, 2016 by edcol52

I came across this article today, and it is a succinct and honest look at what you can say to someone who has lost a son or daughter. http://www.today.com/parents/child-loss-what-you-should-should-not-say-parents-t30596?cid=sm_fbn There is also one thing you may never say, “I know … Continue reading →

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The Memory Labyrinth

Posted on June 25, 2016 by edcol52

We recently went north to attend a wedding in Sebastopol, near Santa Rosa in Northern California. On our way back home, we drove out to the Sonoma coast along the Russian River valley, a lovely 20 miles through rolling forested … Continue reading →

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Post Father’s Day Post

Posted on June 22, 2016 by edcol52

This past Sunday was Father’s Day, or as I now call it, Effing Father’s Day. The third without the son who made me a father. There was a time when I revelled in my fatherhood, had some epic times on … Continue reading →

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Help Dudley Survive Bone Cancer

Posted on June 8, 2016 by edcol52

5 years ago, a little black cat showed up at our back door demanding to be adopted by us. We named her Lola and made her part of the family. A few months later, she had a litter of 4 … Continue reading →

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Lost in Space

Posted on June 5, 2016 by edcol52

It has been nearly two months since I visited these pages. For some reason, the imperative to write is strangely absent. I have had thoughts of writing about Passover, Mother’s Day, the onset of the summer with Father’s Day, a … Continue reading →

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