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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

December 28, 2015

Posted on December 29, 2015 by edcol52

Yesterday marked the second anniversary of Jake’s passing. Last year on this day, I wrote a long post about the first year, and what lessons I learned. I don’t have much new to report this year. My cousin is here … Continue reading →

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Thanksgiving

Posted on November 26, 2015 by edcol52

Originally posted on The Infinite Fountain:
Well, here it is. Thursday. Thanksgiving. One day before another 28th. Wouldn’t it have been ironic if … well, anyway. This year it feels like someone else’s holiday. Oh yes, I have much to…

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Thanksgiving 2015

Posted on November 26, 2015 by edcol52

I want to reach out to all of those who may have an empty chair at their Thanksgiving table this year. A chair once occupied by a loving son or daughter. For them, this is a difficult time of year, … Continue reading →

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Everything Doesn’t Happen for a Reason

Posted on November 8, 2015 by edcol52

This excellent essay has been making the rounds. It is well written and anyone who is grieving knows it is true. To imply that there is some higher reason for our tragedies does not lessen our pain or make it … Continue reading →

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Grieving

Posted on October 23, 2015 by edcol52

Originally posted on MourningAmyMarie:
You have seen our whole voyage.? You have seen us go to sea, a cloud of sail–and the flag at the peak; and you see us now, chartless, adrift–derelicts; battered, water-logged, our sails a ruck of…

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The Waves of Grief

Posted on August 30, 2015 by edcol52

If you have ever been swamped by the waves, here is one person’s reply as to how to manage them. In the case of a parent who has lost a child, those waves are a thousand feet tall, and you … Continue reading →

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August 19, 2015

Posted on August 19, 2015 by edcol52

August 19, 1989 was Jake’s birthday. In years past, when Jake was young, we would have had a wonderful party, our home filled with friends and family. We had some epic parties. Taking over parks, playing laser tag, (remember laser tag?), … Continue reading →

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“Full Impact” by Kelly Farley

Posted on August 15, 2015 by edcol52

Originally posted on Grieving Dads: To the Brink and Back:
Full Impact I was recently at an event for the consulting engineering industry that I work in and ran into a couple of fellow colleagues. During the conversation, I asked…

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My New Reality … Notice I Did Not Say New Normal

Posted on August 8, 2015 by edcol52

Originally posted on MourningAmyMarie:
The calendar I was desperately trying to ignore screamed the news to me at 12:23 a.m. on August 4, 2015. Everyone was sleeping when I jolted out of bed, sobbing quietly as I made my way…

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How Losing Someone Stays With You

Posted on August 6, 2015 by edcol52

Sharing a short article from another blog. Losing a child is a permanent thing. The loss is forever. The grief is forever. The sadness is forever. There is no getting ‘over’ it. We hear a lot about the “new normal”. … Continue reading →

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