Tag Archives: deathofason

A Perpetual State of Bewilderment

Posted on April 25, 2017 by edcol52

It seems unbelievable that exactly three years ago, I wrote a post for this blog titled “A New Stage”. It was a stage of grief that isn’t really discussed in the “grief literature”, one that I named the WTF stage. … Continue reading →

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Loving My Son, After His Death

Posted on April 25, 2017 by edcol52

I came across this again today, and thought it worth sharing. She lost her son around the time we lost Jake and he was almost the same age. Different circumstances, same emotions.

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Letting Go of the Dream

Posted on April 18, 2016 by edcol52

I had a session with M., a biofield healer, the other day. She was repairing my energy fields and at one point she said, “You have to let go of your dreams.” I didn’t ask her in what context she meant … Continue reading →

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A Little Bit of Light

Posted on April 3, 2016 by edcol52

There is a light that burns in every Jewish synagogue, the Ner Tamid. In Judaism, the sanctuary lamp is known by its Hebrew name, ner tamid (Hebrew: נֵר תָּמִיד), which is usually translated as “eternal flame” or “eternal light”. Hanging or standing in … Continue reading →

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“Full Impact” by Kelly Farley

Posted on August 15, 2015 by edcol52

Originally posted on Grieving Dads: To the Brink and Back:
Full Impact I was recently at an event for the consulting engineering industry that I work in and ran into a couple of fellow colleagues. During the conversation, I asked…

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How Losing Someone Stays With You

Posted on August 6, 2015 by edcol52

Sharing a short article from another blog. Losing a child is a permanent thing. The loss is forever. The grief is forever. The sadness is forever. There is no getting ‘over’ it. We hear a lot about the “new normal”. … Continue reading →

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A High Functioning Bereaved Parent

Posted on July 21, 2015 by edcol52

This article from the New York times sheds light on what it is like to live with the loss of a child. He describes the days where the curtain of normalcy parts to reveal the shattered landscape we carry inside … Continue reading →

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The Day the Music Died

Posted on March 23, 2015 by edcol52

When Jake died he took many things with him. He took a possible future where Terry and I became doting grandparents and replaced it with a future where we are that old childless couple sitting on the park bench as young lovers … Continue reading →

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Lessons of the Year

Posted on December 28, 2014 by edcol52

December 28, 2014 – 10:15 AM As we mark the one year ‘anniversary’ of Jake’s death, I find myself reflecting on the past twelve months, and what, if anything, I have learned. There have been many lessons, both painful and enlightening. It … Continue reading →

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The New Header Photo

Posted on December 18, 2014 by edcol52

This is the sunset that ended the day of the last round of golf I played with Jake. The Pete Dye course at the Westin Mission Hills in Palm Springs. Last November. We played until we couldn’t see the ball. Somewhere … Continue reading →

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