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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

Sometimes, It’s the Most Unexpected Things

We have a small guest house attached to our home. Jake lived back there on and off during various phases these last several years. When we went to collect his belongings from Palm Springs last December, we just put everything … Continue reading

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Twenty-one

It has been twenty-one weeks since I heard those heart-stopping words over my cell phone that bright Saturday afternoon. Nearly five months, and yet, it was at once, but a moment ago, and an aeon ago. Twenty-one Friday nights, twenty-one … Continue reading

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Please Stand By

I know the past few posts have been re-blogs of other’s people’s writing. I have been going through a bit of a slump this week; my internal landscape seems to be shifting around. Sharing some of the wonderful discourse that is … Continue reading

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“Grief and Loss”

This showed up today from another blog I follow, Grief and Gratitude. I am still in the sleepwalking phase; I can’t yet say when I might make it to the next phase. But I know, intellectually, that there is another life ahead … Continue reading

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“Wanna see a picture of my baby that died?” she said.

This is a post from a bloger that I follow, and who follows The Fountain. It is an interesting topic. I don’t yet find myself compelled to share my story as much as this young woman does, but I can … Continue reading

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“Brokenness” by Kelly Farley

Originally posted on Grieving Dads: To the Brink and Back:
“Brokenness” After a long winter here in Chicago I found myself trying to get motivated to “do something” but couldn’t seem to find the energy or desire. The bitter cold…

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Three Little Words

Today, I won’t go into an exposition on Greek Mythology, no analysis of Modern Art, no philosophy, Natural History, deep insights, happy memories, or photos. Just three little words; I miss him …

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The Persistence of Memory

“The Persistence of Memory” is arguably one of Salvador Dali’s best known and most analyzed paintings. Scores of scholars have written millions of words exploring the symbolism of the soft watches, the ants, the cliffs, and the figure in the center of the … Continue reading

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Think of the “Like” button as a “Support” button

While it may be difficult to “Like” posts about the death of a child, the grief of a parent, the difficulties we all face while living without our children, I know that when you click “Like”, you let me know … Continue reading

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Ojai Vignettes, Part 2

On Tuesday, once again, we made the trip north from Los Angeles to the beautiful Ojai Valley. We are blessed to have a friend who makes our sojourns possible by allowing us to stay at their lovely home here. It … Continue reading

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