Tag Archives: vastloss

The Memory Labyrinth

Posted on June 25, 2016 by edcol52

We recently went north to attend a wedding in Sebastopol, near Santa Rosa in Northern California. On our way back home, we drove out to the Sonoma coast along the Russian River valley, a lovely 20 miles through rolling forested … Continue reading →

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Lost in Space

Posted on June 5, 2016 by edcol52

It has been nearly two months since I visited these pages. For some reason, the imperative to write is strangely absent. I have had thoughts of writing about Passover, Mother’s Day, the onset of the summer with Father’s Day, a … Continue reading →

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Letting Go of the Dream

Posted on April 18, 2016 by edcol52

I had a session with M., a biofield healer, the other day. She was repairing my energy fields and at one point she said, “You have to let go of your dreams.” I didn’t ask her in what context she meant … Continue reading →

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A Peculiar Paradox

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

Somehow, I have not yet been able to reconcile the fact that our son is truly gone with the fact that he seems so close at times. I look at the belongings we brought back from Palm Springs, three huge … Continue reading →

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First Shabbat

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 3, 2014 We had our first Shabbat dinner since that terrible day. Laughter and tears as we shared memories. Speaking of Jake in the present rather than the past helped and hurt both at the same time. Helped because … Continue reading →

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January Sunrise

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 2, 2014 Today I looked out my window in the morning and saw Jake in the golden sunrise in the top of his redwood tree, in a miraculous flock of birds that swept through our yard this afternoon, in … Continue reading →

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O Beautiful Boy

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 1, 2014 Oh Beautiful Boy of unbounded grace Our all, our light, our brilliant shining star Our love for you transcends all time and space And comes to you, though you be near or far. To everyone you met, … Continue reading →

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The Saddest Day

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

December 31, 2013 The saddest day of my life. Originally posted on Facebook December 31,2013

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Outpouring

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

Terry and I are overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support from all our friends, and Jake’s friends. We are truly humbled by your thoughts, words and fond remembrances of Jake. The best thing we can do is to … Continue reading →

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Dear Universe

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

Dear Universe, Fuck You. Give him back. Helen: My heart keeps breaking and my eyes keep filling with tears for you and Terry. Don’t know how to make this go away for you or to turn back the clock. My love … Continue reading →

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