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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

The Power of Photographs

Posted on February 5, 2014 by edcol52

We have dozens of photographs of Jake around our house, from all different stages of his life. Prior to last December, they ranged from him and his first birthday cake, through 2 year old “Batman” to “Chef Jake” about 13 … Continue reading →

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The Beach Hut

Posted on February 4, 2014 by edcol52

The steady beat of waves upon the shore. The sweet salty smell of the ocean Lost treasures wash up onto the beach everything to make a house. The aromas of steaks, chicken, and fish waft from the BBQ Us, isolated … Continue reading →

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Jake’s Library

Posted on February 3, 2014 by edcol52

Hi, Thank you all for your kind words, sweet deeds, compassion and being dear friends. Many of you have expressed wanting to do something. We’ve decided to create a children’s library at our Shul in honor and memory of our … Continue reading →

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For Whom Do We Weep?

Posted on February 3, 2014 by edcol52

I woke up this morning at 6:35 with tears in my eyes. Usually I am awake before my iPhone starts to play the Chopin Nocturne #1 that is my alarm clock, but today, the music dragged me up from a … Continue reading →

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The First Tee

Posted on February 2, 2014 by edcol52

I am standing on the first tee of a beautiful golf course. The soft grey pre-dawn light mutes the colors, the ocean faintly visible in the distance. As I look down the fairway, Jake drives up behind me, alone in … Continue reading →

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Too Many Parents

Posted on February 1, 2014 by edcol52

I have been cruising around the web this evening looking at many other sites and pages that deal with grief, loss and recovery. What is so tragic is that there are too many parents that have had the same horrific … Continue reading →

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Solving the Problem of Grief: The Solution Is Not What You Think

Posted on February 1, 2014 by edcol52

Originally posted on Natasha's Memory Garden:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/megan-devine/death-and-dying_b_4606150.html By Megan Devine Posted: 01/23/2014 5:51 pm Solving the problem of grief is a problem in itself: if the ways you are broken cannot possibly be fixed, why does everyone keep giving…

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Progress?

Posted on January 31, 2014 by edcol52

Today was a tiny slice of normal. The clouds lifted somewhat, and shreds of blue emerged from behind the corrugated grey clouds as the day wore on. Bustling around doing innocuous errands for most of the day, including trips to two … Continue reading →

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Kindness

Posted on January 30, 2014 by edcol52

Today was flat. Flat, grey clouds overhead, flat grey light, flat grey feelings inside. After the wrenching emotional rollercoaster of yesterday, I feel exhausted and encouraged all at the same time. That paradox. I experienced several acts of kindness today that … Continue reading →

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Shloshim

Posted on January 29, 2014 by edcol52

Today we marked the end of the shloshim, the 30 days of mourning following Jake’s funeral. The day dawned cold and grey. A shroud of fog enveloped everything, damp and misty. We drove to the cemetery in silence. Even the … Continue reading →

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