Category Archives: Memory

River of Tears

Posted on March 8, 2014 by edcol52

A piece of the chorus of this Bonnie Raitt song keeps going through my head today. “River of Tears/Oceans of Heartbreak.” It is a song about a breakup of love, the rest of the lyrics don’t exactly apply, but what … Continue reading →

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Missin’ You

Posted on March 3, 2014 by edcol52

It’s curious how this works, I still haven’t figured it out. Granted, I am very new at this, but it is all a mystery. Last night we had dinner at our friend’s house. These are people who knew Jake well; … Continue reading →

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Last Times, First Times

Posted on March 2, 2014 by edcol52

Another week, another Shabbat, another month past and gone. And yet, it still seems like a moment ago that we learned of Jake’s untimely death. What have I gleaned in this past two months? Not much, other than human beings … Continue reading →

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Chronic Sorrow

Posted on February 25, 2014 by edcol52

I flipped my radio on this morning and came into the middle of an interview on Morning Edition. The woman being interviewed was speaking about guilt and grief, and it took me a few minutes to realize she was recounting … Continue reading →

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The Memory Box

Posted on February 24, 2014 by edcol52

I received a package today. It contained 6 books donated by Kar-Ben publishing in Minneapolis, for Jake’s Library. Beautiful illustrated books for children ages 2-8. Books about Jewish holidays, life, and history. Books Jake would have loved when he was … Continue reading →

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Why Say Anything At All?

Posted on February 21, 2014 by edcol52

Here’s a rhetorical question. When people try to console those who grieve over a departed loved one, WHY do they find it necessary to chronicle all the terrible things they have heard about lately. For example, I spoke with someone … Continue reading →

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Pages in a Journal

Posted on February 19, 2014 by edcol52

I have been looking at some of Jake’s journals from the past couple of years. In each one, the first 5, 10, 15 pages are filled with the most diverse writings. Philosophy, ramblings, shopping lists, recipes, lists of people’s phone … Continue reading →

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Ambushed!

Posted on February 17, 2014 by edcol52

Today started off just fine. Clear sky, bright yellow sunlight. Everything seemed to be okay. We had a lovely time the previous evening at our friends’ house, eating corned beef hash (one of Jake’s favorites) popping popcorn and watching, or more … Continue reading →

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Cycles

Posted on February 16, 2014 by edcol52

Life is filled with cycles. There is the cycle of the seasons throughout the year, spring, summer, autumn, winter. The cycle of months. There is the cycle of the days in the week. Within each day is the cycle of … Continue reading →

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Another Shabbat

Posted on February 14, 2014 by edcol52

Today was another unremarkable day. I guess that is also progress of a sort. A little puttering around the house, lunch with Terry, and a walk along the jetty in the afternoon. It was one of those beautiful Los Angeles … Continue reading →

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