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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

In Their Words

Posted on May 8, 2014 by edcol52

In the months since Jake’s death I have received scores of private messages on Facebook, texts, phone calls, emails, voice mails, and snail mail letters from Jake’s friends. I wanted to share some of them with you so you can … Continue reading →

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Hercules or Sisyphus?

Posted on May 5, 2014 by edcol52

We all know about Hercules. He was the son of Zeus, king of the Gods, and Alcmene, a mortal woman. Zeus’ wife Hera was jealous of her and while she couldn’t really do anything about the situation, she vowed to … Continue reading →

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What’s in a Number?

Posted on April 28, 2014 by edcol52

Today is the 28th of April. Not a particularly significant date other than it marks four months since our beautiful boy died. Why should this day mean more than any of the previous 121 days since that dreadful 28th? Why do … Continue reading →

Posted in Ceremony, Coping, Daily Ramblings, Grief, Healing, Jake Colman, Progress, Sadness | Tagged , , , , | 14 Comments

Lessons of Holiness

Posted on April 25, 2014 by edcol52

Here is an article appearing on the Jewish Press website sent to me today. It speaks of the challenge of bereavement, finding our way forward and keeping our loved ones alive in our hearts. The Lessons of Holiness Even in … Continue reading →

Posted in Ceremony, Coping, Grief, Healing, Jake Colman, Jake's Spirit, Memory, Other Media, Print Article | Tagged , , , , , | 6 Comments

Welcome and Thank You.

Posted on April 24, 2014 by edcol52

Just a quick note to welcome all the new visitors and followers to the Fountain today. Thank you for your generosity in taking the time to stop by, ‘like’ a post or leave a comment. I can’t thank each of you … Continue reading →

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A New Stage

Posted on April 21, 2014 by edcol52

I have encountered a new stage of grief. There have been volumes written on these stages, or more accurately phases. We don’t go through them step by step, but rather by turns, and I mean twists and turns, looping back … Continue reading →

Posted in Coping, Daily Ramblings, Grief, Jake Colman, Jake's Spirit, Memory, Sadness | Tagged , , , , | 59 Comments

Passover

Posted on April 16, 2014 by edcol52

The observance of Passover is one of the very first commandments given in the Torah to what will become the Jewish nation. It is a precursor to the creation of The Children of Israel, the bringing together of a subjugated and enslaved minority and making … Continue reading →

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What Suffering Does

Posted on April 12, 2014 by edcol52

Here is an article from the New York Times on Suffering. What Suffering Does It poses some interesting questions and makes some cogent observations. He is correct when he says that you crash through the floor of your personality, into … Continue reading →

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Fifteen

Posted on April 11, 2014 by edcol52

It has been a confused week since my last post. So many things to write about and yet so little change overall. I have been missing Jake hugely for the past several days; the intensity seems to be building. My … Continue reading →

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One of Those Days

Posted on April 2, 2014 by edcol52

I haven’t had any really happy days since December 28. I have had somewhat pleasant days, neutral days, numb days, indifferent days, and sad days. For some reason, today is one of the sad ones. I can’t quite place my … Continue reading →

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