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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

The Ten Commandments of Not Making Things Worse

Posted on January 1, 2015 by edcol52

Here is a ‘top ten’ list for people who wonder what bereaved parents can and cannot abide.

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December 31, 2014

Posted on December 31, 2014 by edcol52

December 31, 2014 Two years ago, we were eating stuffed mushrooms and drinking Pineapple-Orange Martinis, putting the finishing touches on Osso Buco and Saffron Risotto, opening a bottle of Veuve and wishing everyone a Very Happy New Year. One year … Continue reading →

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Grieving My Child

Posted on December 30, 2014 by edcol52

Originally posted on MourningAmyMarie:
My heart is broken. So is my life. There is no instruction manual on how to survive the loss of a child. I have listened to many books on the subject and downloaded many more onto…

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Here’s to 2015

Posted on December 30, 2014 by edcol52

Originally posted on Zachary, Forever 21:
? This describes both Zachary and myself. Zachary was destroyed. I don’t know exactly how or why that night last Christmas was the final blow but he was destroyed. Some days I feel destroyed; other…

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One Year On

Posted on December 29, 2014 by edcol52

These are some of the messages I received over the past few days from friends and family remembering Jake and that dreadful day one year ago. •  •  • Exactly one year ago today, I was walking into my house … Continue reading →

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Lessons of the Year

Posted on December 28, 2014 by edcol52

December 28, 2014 – 10:15 AM As we mark the one year ‘anniversary’ of Jake’s death, I find myself reflecting on the past twelve months, and what, if anything, I have learned. There have been many lessons, both painful and enlightening. It … Continue reading →

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A Darkened Hanukkah

Posted on December 22, 2014 by edcol52

Hanukkah. The Festival of Lights. The holiday commemorates the rededication of the ancient Temple in Jerusalem around 165 BCE. The Romans had sacked and looted the temple, and a band of Jewish guerrillas lead by Judah Maccabee prevailed over the … Continue reading →

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The New Header Photo

Posted on December 18, 2014 by edcol52

This is the sunset that ended the day of the last round of golf I played with Jake. The Pete Dye course at the Westin Mission Hills in Palm Springs. Last November. We played until we couldn’t see the ball. Somewhere … Continue reading →

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The Unveiling

Posted on December 15, 2014 by edcol52

I was going to write a long descriptive post about Jake’s unveiling on Sunday. I can only say that no parent should have to look on something like this:   We had our closest friends and family surrounding us. Jake’s spirit … Continue reading →

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Light a Candle

Posted on December 12, 2014 by edcol52

The Compassionate Friends/USA Please join us this Sunday, December 14 for the Worldwide Candle Lighting in memory of all children gone too soon. For full information including services around the globe, visit: https://www.compassionatefriends.org/WCL…/2014_services.aspx. If there is not a service near you, … Continue reading →

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