Tag Archives: deathofachild

Missin’ You

Posted on March 3, 2014 by edcol52

It’s curious how this works, I still haven’t figured it out. Granted, I am very new at this, but it is all a mystery. Last night we had dinner at our friend’s house. These are people who knew Jake well; … Continue reading →

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Foggy Days

Posted on February 12, 2014 by edcol52

Yesterday passed in a fog. Outside and inside. When I left the house in the morning, the ocean fog blanketed the world in its grey mantle, softening shapes and sounds. I couldn’t see much more than a couple of hundred … Continue reading →

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The Power of Photographs

Posted on February 5, 2014 by edcol52

We have dozens of photographs of Jake around our house, from all different stages of his life. Prior to last December, they ranged from him and his first birthday cake, through 2 year old “Batman” to “Chef Jake” about 13 … Continue reading →

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For Whom Do We Weep?

Posted on February 3, 2014 by edcol52

I woke up this morning at 6:35 with tears in my eyes. Usually I am awake before my iPhone starts to play the Chopin Nocturne #1 that is my alarm clock, but today, the music dragged me up from a … Continue reading →

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The First Tee

Posted on February 2, 2014 by edcol52

I am standing on the first tee of a beautiful golf course. The soft grey pre-dawn light mutes the colors, the ocean faintly visible in the distance. As I look down the fairway, Jake drives up behind me, alone in … Continue reading →

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Too Many Parents

Posted on February 1, 2014 by edcol52

I have been cruising around the web this evening looking at many other sites and pages that deal with grief, loss and recovery. What is so tragic is that there are too many parents that have had the same horrific … Continue reading →

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Progress?

Posted on January 31, 2014 by edcol52

Today was a tiny slice of normal. The clouds lifted somewhat, and shreds of blue emerged from behind the corrugated grey clouds as the day wore on. Bustling around doing innocuous errands for most of the day, including trips to two … Continue reading →

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Kindness

Posted on January 30, 2014 by edcol52

Today was flat. Flat, grey clouds overhead, flat grey light, flat grey feelings inside. After the wrenching emotional rollercoaster of yesterday, I feel exhausted and encouraged all at the same time. That paradox. I experienced several acts of kindness today that … Continue reading →

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Shloshim

Posted on January 29, 2014 by edcol52

Today we marked the end of the shloshim, the 30 days of mourning following Jake’s funeral. The day dawned cold and grey. A shroud of fog enveloped everything, damp and misty. We drove to the cemetery in silence. Even the … Continue reading →

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Shabbat #4

Posted on January 25, 2014 by edcol52

Yesterday was mostly uneventful. Which, right now, is a good thing. We had our ‘California Breakfast’ of grapefruit and oranges from the tree, yogurt and bananas and strong black coffee, on the patio. Our friends, the birds, flitted about and … Continue reading →

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