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About edcol52

The Infinite Fountain of Love and Loss flows unceasingly into the pool of memory and sorrow. I created this blog in response to the most dreadful tragedy every parent fears, the death of a child, our 24 year old son, Jake. We are now on an unimagined journey along this road of grief and recovery. If you can find some comfort within these pages, than I will have succeeded in some small measure.

River of Tears

Posted on March 8, 2014 by edcol52

A piece of the chorus of this Bonnie Raitt song keeps going through my head today. “River of Tears/Oceans of Heartbreak.” It is a song about a breakup of love, the rest of the lyrics don’t exactly apply, but what … Continue reading →

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Just Grinding Along

Posted on March 5, 2014 by edcol52

Yeah, that’s how these past few days felt. Just grinding along. Crossing off the days one by one. I have settled into a sort of routine now. Up at 6:35 during the week. Shul by 6:45, Kaddish, and home by 7:15. … Continue reading →

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Missin’ You

Posted on March 3, 2014 by edcol52

It’s curious how this works, I still haven’t figured it out. Granted, I am very new at this, but it is all a mystery. Last night we had dinner at our friend’s house. These are people who knew Jake well; … Continue reading →

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Last Times, First Times

Posted on March 2, 2014 by edcol52

Another week, another Shabbat, another month past and gone. And yet, it still seems like a moment ago that we learned of Jake’s untimely death. What have I gleaned in this past two months? Not much, other than human beings … Continue reading →

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Making the Minyan

Posted on February 28, 2014 by edcol52

There is a concept in Judaism of ‘minyan’ or a quorum of ten men necessary for public religious observances. The sources of this requirement are several Biblical verses regarding congregations and the number of people who constitute a ‘congregation’, as … Continue reading →

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How to Deal With Grief When You Still Have to Work

Posted on February 28, 2014 by edcol52

This post by Paolina Milana published on The Daily Muse talks a bit about things to consider when returning to work after losing a loved one. Pretty good advice. Especially the Be Kind to Yourself part. http://www.themuse.com/advice/grief-at-the-office-how-to-deal-with-the-worst-when-you-still-have-to-work

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Living With Grief: A Conversation Between Men

Posted on February 27, 2014 by edcol52

Anderson Cooper talks with Liam Neeson five years after the death of his wife, Natasha Richardson. He speaks about loss, grief and living with the aftermath. http://www.cbsnews.com/news/liam-neeson-anderson-cooper-on-living-with-grief/

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Chronic Sorrow

Posted on February 25, 2014 by edcol52

I flipped my radio on this morning and came into the middle of an interview on Morning Edition. The woman being interviewed was speaking about guilt and grief, and it took me a few minutes to realize she was recounting … Continue reading →

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The Memory Box

Posted on February 24, 2014 by edcol52

I received a package today. It contained 6 books donated by Kar-Ben publishing in Minneapolis, for Jake’s Library. Beautiful illustrated books for children ages 2-8. Books about Jewish holidays, life, and history. Books Jake would have loved when he was … Continue reading →

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Why Say Anything At All?

Posted on February 21, 2014 by edcol52

Here’s a rhetorical question. When people try to console those who grieve over a departed loved one, WHY do they find it necessary to chronicle all the terrible things they have heard about lately. For example, I spoke with someone … Continue reading →

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