Category Archives: Sadness

Hercules or Sisyphus?

Posted on May 5, 2014 by edcol52

We all know about Hercules. He was the son of Zeus, king of the Gods, and Alcmene, a mortal woman. Zeus’ wife Hera was jealous of her and while she couldn’t really do anything about the situation, she vowed to … Continue reading →

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What’s in a Number?

Posted on April 28, 2014 by edcol52

Today is the 28th of April. Not a particularly significant date other than it marks four months since our beautiful boy died. Why should this day mean more than any of the previous 121 days since that dreadful 28th? Why do … Continue reading →

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A New Stage

Posted on April 21, 2014 by edcol52

I have encountered a new stage of grief. There have been volumes written on these stages, or more accurately phases. We don’t go through them step by step, but rather by turns, and I mean twists and turns, looping back … Continue reading →

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Passover

Posted on April 16, 2014 by edcol52

The observance of Passover is one of the very first commandments given in the Torah to what will become the Jewish nation. It is a precursor to the creation of The Children of Israel, the bringing together of a subjugated and enslaved minority and making … Continue reading →

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What Suffering Does

Posted on April 12, 2014 by edcol52

Here is an article from the New York Times on Suffering. What Suffering Does It poses some interesting questions and makes some cogent observations. He is correct when he says that you crash through the floor of your personality, into … Continue reading →

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Fifteen

Posted on April 11, 2014 by edcol52

It has been a confused week since my last post. So many things to write about and yet so little change overall. I have been missing Jake hugely for the past several days; the intensity seems to be building. My … Continue reading →

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One of Those Days

Posted on April 2, 2014 by edcol52

I haven’t had any really happy days since December 28. I have had somewhat pleasant days, neutral days, numb days, indifferent days, and sad days. For some reason, today is one of the sad ones. I can’t quite place my … Continue reading →

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Going Through the Motions

Posted on March 23, 2014 by edcol52

There are several physical actions that take place during the Orthodox prayer service. One stands, sits, and bows at various places, to name a few. The actual words have lost much of their meaning for me, some of the phrases … Continue reading →

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Ojai Vignettes, Part 1

Posted on March 18, 2014 by edcol52

Driving north on Highway 1 again. Through the same blackened and blasted landscape of six weeks ago. Today, the charred hillsides wore the gauzy green mantle of new growth that signifies Spring in California. My internal landscape was slightly less … Continue reading →

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You’re Okay, I’m Not Okay

Posted on March 15, 2014 by edcol52

What do I say to the person who asks, “How are you doing?” The question is such a reflexive conversational device. People ask without even thinking. Most of them listen to the reply without really hearing what you are saying, … Continue reading →

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