Category Archives: Jake Colman

Letting Go of the Dream

I had a session with M., a biofield healer, the other day. She was repairing my energy fields and at one point she said, “You have to let go of your dreams.” I didn’t ask her in what context she meant … Continue reading

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A Little Bit of Light

There is a light that burns in every Jewish synagogue, the Ner Tamid. In Judaism, the sanctuary lamp is known by its Hebrew name, ner tamid (Hebrew: נֵר תָּמִיד), which is usually translated as “eternal flame” or “eternal light”. Hanging or standing in … Continue reading

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Losing Petie

Originally posted on learning to let go 2016:
No matter how long I live, I will never be able to write in words what losing my child has made of me.  It’s a schizophrenic life.  One of holding on and letting…

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Past or Present?

When talking with people, people who may not be familiar with your story, people who you have just met, there comes a moment that every parent who has lost a child dreads –the question, “So, do you have children?”  If … Continue reading

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The Waiting Room

This is my new blog, The Waiting Room Project. I began the project three years ago while I was waiting for Jake at a doctor’s appointment. I started photographing the waiting rooms I frequently found myself in. It blossomed into … Continue reading

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Dear Newly Bereaved Parent

This is an essay I came across today. It’s honest and true. I would say many of the same things. The thing is, two years ago, all I would have heard, should someone have read this to me, all I … Continue reading

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6 Things About My New Normal

Grief literature is filled with the concept of the “new normal”. It is usually portrayed as the goal for people grappling to rebuild their lives after a traumatic event. The idea is, in a situation which appears so surreal – the destruction of your … Continue reading

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Another Double Whammy

Wednesday was Jake’s 2nd yahrtzeit, the anniversary of his passing in the Hebrew calendar. As I have written, the Jewish calendar is lunisolar and the dates drift around with respect to the Gregorian calendar we all use; the two dates rarely align … Continue reading

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December 28, 2015

Yesterday marked the second anniversary of Jake’s passing. Last year on this day, I wrote a long post about the first year, and what lessons I learned. I don’t have much new to report this year. My cousin is here … Continue reading

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Thanksgiving

Originally posted on The Infinite Fountain:
Well, here it is. Thursday. Thanksgiving. One day before another 28th. Wouldn’t it have been ironic if … well, anyway. This year it feels like someone else’s holiday. Oh yes, I have much to…

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