Category Archives: Jake’s Spirit

Shabbat #4

Posted on January 25, 2014 by edcol52

Yesterday was mostly uneventful. Which, right now, is a good thing. We had our ‘California Breakfast’ of grapefruit and oranges from the tree, yogurt and bananas and strong black coffee, on the patio. Our friends, the birds, flitted about and … Continue reading →

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A Peculiar Paradox

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

Somehow, I have not yet been able to reconcile the fact that our son is truly gone with the fact that he seems so close at times. I look at the belongings we brought back from Palm Springs, three huge … Continue reading →

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Arrangements

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 13 Bittersweet. Today we went to “arrange” for Jake’s marker stone. Looking at fonts, finishes, stones, working out the text, like we were designing some ghastly business card. Just another surreal episode in this Bizzaro world we now inhabit. … Continue reading →

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Pizza Quest

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 12 Today was by turns a bit better and just as bad. We went for coffee along Abbot Kinney, just to get out. It is difficult to walk around in this new world, but necessary. The coffee wasn’t very … Continue reading →

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Porch Light

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 10 Jakey Jake. We’ll leave the light on for you. A very tough day. It started off innocently enough with my early morning cry, a trip to shul to say kaddish and back home. In the afternoon, things shifted … Continue reading →

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Apathy

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 8, 2014 Apathy has set in. Yesterday was flat and listless, today bodes to be more of the same. I have to force myself to do the simplest of tasks, make a cup of tea, cut up an orange. … Continue reading →

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Dreams

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 6, 2013 I have had dreams of restaurants every night this past few days. Last night, the dream included the submarine ride at Disneyland. Jake loved eating out and at one time wanted to build his own submarine. Go … Continue reading →

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First Shabbat

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 3, 2014 We had our first Shabbat dinner since that terrible day. Laughter and tears as we shared memories. Speaking of Jake in the present rather than the past helped and hurt both at the same time. Helped because … Continue reading →

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O Beautiful Boy

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

January 1, 2014 Oh Beautiful Boy of unbounded grace Our all, our light, our brilliant shining star Our love for you transcends all time and space And comes to you, though you be near or far. To everyone you met, … Continue reading →

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The Saddest Day

Posted on January 21, 2014 by edcol52

December 31, 2013 The saddest day of my life. Originally posted on Facebook December 31,2013

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