Category Archives: Progress

Losing My Voice

Posted on August 3, 2014 by edcol52

Where does the time go? I have read that it takes 21 days to create a habit. That is if you want to start doing something, do it consistently for 21 days, and you will create the habit to continue … Continue reading →

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The Physical Toll of Grief

Posted on July 2, 2014 by edcol52

Yesterday was June 28th. Exactly six months, twenty-six weeks, since our beloved son died. Twenty-six joyless Shabbats. Twenty-six dreaded Saturday mornings. One hundred eighty-two days I have had to live in this world without Jake. It still doesn’t seem possible. … Continue reading →

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What’s in a Number?

Posted on April 28, 2014 by edcol52

Today is the 28th of April. Not a particularly significant date other than it marks four months since our beautiful boy died. Why should this day mean more than any of the previous 121 days since that dreadful 28th? Why do … Continue reading →

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Where Are the Dads?

Posted on March 10, 2014 by edcol52

I have been out in the ‘grieving parent blogosphere’ for a while now. There are a lot of mothers posting the most beautifully eloquent writings about their experiences, their lost children, the struggle to rebuild their shattered lives. So far, … Continue reading →

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Just Grinding Along

Posted on March 5, 2014 by edcol52

Yeah, that’s how these past few days felt. Just grinding along. Crossing off the days one by one. I have settled into a sort of routine now. Up at 6:35 during the week. Shul by 6:45, Kaddish, and home by 7:15. … Continue reading →

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Another Shabbat

Posted on February 14, 2014 by edcol52

Today was another unremarkable day. I guess that is also progress of a sort. A little puttering around the house, lunch with Terry, and a walk along the jetty in the afternoon. It was one of those beautiful Los Angeles … Continue reading →

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Books and Bowls

Posted on February 10, 2014 by edcol52

Today I got two stacks of letters ready to mail. The first was made up of some bills Jake left behind. I wrote a brief letter explaining the situation to the creditors and printed copies of the death certificate. Seeing … Continue reading →

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Forever Young

Posted on February 8, 2014 by edcol52

In reading some of the “grief literature”, and in comments and discussions I have seen, I have learned some new terms. “Grief Spasms”, those paroxysms of anguish that grip, periodically often without warning. “Chronic Sorrow” describes exactly what condition a … Continue reading →

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Morning, Afternoon, Evening

Posted on February 6, 2014 by edcol52

Mornings are the hardest. Except it gets bad in the afternoon, and evenings are the worst. There is no time of day when I don’t miss him. What concerns me, is that as time slides by, I don’t miss him … Continue reading →

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Jake’s Library

Posted on February 3, 2014 by edcol52

Hi, Thank you all for your kind words, sweet deeds, compassion and being dear friends. Many of you have expressed wanting to do something. We’ve decided to create a children’s library at our Shul in honor and memory of our … Continue reading →

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